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Sunday, June 21, 2009 @ 11:29 PM
Ok I'm here to do the project!

Actually I don't really know how I should be feeling, and actually I don't really know how I should start.

Ever since I had my Amaths tuition, I've stopped going to church. Like for really long, half a year? And to be honest, if anyone were to ask me this question "Do you feel yourself drifting away from God?", I would feel that it's kinda like rhetorical. For so long, I've been wondering - when can I ever step into church again? I still read the bible, still do my prayers, but I can feel myself drifting away a lot.

So the night before I went to Friday's camp, I prayed to God. I prayed for help. I actually prayed for help to get me back to Him and I would not drift away any further, let me learn how to trust in Him more and surrender everything I have to Him (not try to solve things on my own).

And that had to happen.

A part of me feels as though my luck is really running dry, and I thought if I were to tell this to my dad, I could prolly stop thinking about hanging out with any churchmates. But no, a bigger part of me is not convinced, telling me it's part of the challenge - it's as though God's telling me to pray harder than before, and continue to pray for the cell, especially those who are affected. And I really want to thank God for that. I don't know what my dad's thinking right now, but at least he's concerned about them.

So I can't really think of a word to express my emotions right now? Hahahah I'm not sure if it's just coincidence for me, but that's what's going thru my mind. I guess it's really a big challenge for C2 and this will really strengthen bonds! Although I wasn't in camp on the first day and I'm not really close to all the C2 members, I believe the camp comm did a great job!

God answers prayers (although it's kind of sad that all these had to happen) so I guess we should continuing praying like never before! C2 is doing a great job and we will still praise. Go C2! : )

Take care guys!

-Renia